爱自己

我了解该爱自己多一些,

明白爱自己是多么的重要,

疼自己是必然的。

但是我一直以来都做不到。

别人,都可以自信心过度,

别人,不去理会其他人感受,

别人,总是对自己好,

别人,都活在自己世界里,

别人,都不在乎别人看法。

。。。。。。。。。

这一切在我眼里都是"自私",

直到现在,

我才知道每个人不是自私,

只是爱自己,保护自己。

我是否该那样?

做到吗?

其实近期来因为工作的关系,

做了很多爱自己的事情。

(待遇有点过度好,压力更大!)

之后会提起什么事啦。呵呵呵。。

总之是好事就是了。

这种,会维持多久呢?

苦了,忍了,那么多年,那么多次的痛苦,

好的事情是不是来了,而待在我身边?

Youyou, 我爱你。 <3

这张我很靓～
（1st rule of 爱自己，自恋！XD）

Thank you mummy

Sometimes she was quite annoying by her sensitivity and bad temper attitude.
Sometimes she kept on scolding us and force us to follow what she wants us to do.
Sometimes she was kind of stubborn people that don't want listen to others.
Sometimes she was really care on her own feelings instead of others.

But,
Today, she was difference.
She bought my favourite crabs just to cook for me, i know she was hate to kill them because think of too cruelty to do so.
Maybe she noticed recently I was lack of appetites.
She don't even fight back even though I was accidentally higher my volume this morning when talking to her. She talked nicely back to me.
Maybe she thoughts I was pressure on my job or she knew maybe something bothering me.
She helps me to clean up some dishes that supposed to be my work at home just now.
Maybe she thought I was not feeling well.

All those simple acts make me teardrop and bring my mood worse.
Felt hurts with what I faced this few days, yet felt guilty and touches with her acts .
I wish to tell her everything at least she know what going on to me, but I can't.
She will worry and bring more burdens to her.

Thank you and pray for me so that I could go through everything for a better future life, Mummy.

来得突然的好事情

近这三个星期里，

来得很突然的好事情。

就在开始折磨我的那个星期里，

我在jobstreet 里如常的申请工作。

自己完全没有心理准备的时候，

我收到了封email，要我去面试。

那时的我，直接整个人都慌了。

前几天累计下来的坏心情还没收拾好，还在折腾着，

收到email隔两天就得去面试了。

第一次面试，

对那公司，那职位还有一些该知道的事情，还是毫无头绪。

再加上与其他面试不一样的是，它是在starbuck进行而不是公司里面。

问了一位学姐该怎么面对面试，

（学姐读HR，也算是专业的interviewer），

review回自己曾在finishing school里学到的东西，

自己也找了公司的资料，还有职位的job scope。

因为是第一次，

虽然准备得很充足，

（谦有帮忙当我一个晚上的interviewer），

但是我是抱着试试的心态去面对这个面试，

毕竟不算是我首选的工作。

果然，自己准备得挺充足的，

加上interviewer本身也非常亲切非常好，

只是这一次是 1st interview，

还需要2nd interview正式见了老板才可以通过。

(当时在想，那个已经不重要了~哈哈！）

整个过程只是短短的四十多分钟，

对于自己的表现也非常满意。

（不到现场你不会知道原来自己的英文可以说得那么流利又好听。

在Poland三个月不是假的！）

就这样，难得松了一口气，

让自己relax relax一下。

毕竟那两天我都一直被这个面试折磨着。

怎么知道，

隔天，我就收到了email要我去2nd interview. @.@"

是在一个星期后同一个地方，但是未免也太快了。

在还没接受这一个2nd interview时，

自己有做了非常非常慎重的考虑，

我非常了解自己处事方式，

一旦我选择了就要做得好做得到，

这份工作虽然并非我的首选，

自己其实也很怕麻烦，但是如果我选择了就得认真做下去，

一旦认真做下去就得做得好，为自己也为未来。

就这样接受了这一个2nd interview。

难得熬了一个星期后，

刚好前几天谦请假回来，

说想陪我载我去面试，给我壮壮胆。

其实这一次的2nd interview我并没什么准备，

抱着平常心，

（其实自己也没有什么心情准备）

刚好那几天也忙着出街拍拖，

只是到了前两天才上网看看需要准备些什么。

还记得前几天，想着我这份工作需要有点淡妆，

很少化妆的我就是缺了一支lipstick，

就告诉谦，

如果我的到了这份工，给我的奖励是要他选给我的口红。

当天早上谦七早八早就来陪我吃早餐，

之后便载我出发，

心情非常忐忑不安的我，

整个人非常的慌。

到了那里就见到了几个interviewers在interview着一个猛男。

而谦就在隔壁几间的secret等我。

这一次的面试，感觉自己做得不太好，

而那位之前的interviewer感觉一直在帮我，

我也尽了力去面对，

期间听到了这一份工作有非常可观的利益，

但是反而更加吓我，

因为我知道利益越大我得付出的努力需要更大。

就这样，不到半小时就完成了。

当我出现在谦面前时，他吓了一跳，

问我怎么那么快？哈哈哈~我也不懂。

只知道完成了面试后，

整个人都松了一口气。

之后我们还找了一间韩国餐厅庆祝大吃。

我完全不去在乎结果是好是坏，

只是想着过去了就过去，是时候轻松轻松，

当然当天还少不了发了一封thank you letter给他们。

隔天下午，

看到了其中一人早上的回复，同时也告诉我得到这份工的几率很高。

不到半小时后，收到了来电

“congratulation~”

。。。。。。

我被录取了！！

一切都来的好快好快。

隔了一个星期，

明天会去拿offer letter，同时会更深入了解自己的工作范围，

然后星期四就开工了。

就这样，一切都好顺利哦...

我不是失业者了，有工作有寄托了。哈哈哈~

是来得有点太快，什么都还没准备，

但是还是替自己感到开心。

第一次interview就成功，

第一份工就被录取，

第一份工的福利也非常的不错。

所以第一次做工就要认真去做了。
加油！
还有还有，

有新的第一支好口红...哈哈哈~

After quite a long time

After quite a long time,

Im back again to my blog...

I purposely stop for few weeks just to avoid something that annoying me for 2years...

It's not worth to talk about it anymore.

Because it consider as a nightmare for me.

Im always wish to be peace and happy.

That's why i choose to away from it.

Hopefully, no one will pull all those nightmare back again to me in future.

Once, i decide to abandon my blog,

but it was my memories for this few years.

Everything, every moments and every words that i wrote was just in my life.

To be called as Blog, i think it's more suitable to call as youyou's diary.

So, i decided to stop for few weeks,

until now...a better time to continue.

There were a lot of things happen in this few weeks.

But mostly was good news.

One of the good new came in sudden, without my expectation and without any preparation.

I choose to accept it and try it.

Deng~ What was that?? hahahahaha...

Will write it down on next blog....

Back to the topic...

Im glad that im still alive after being suffer for more than 1 whole week...

And of cos, i also glad that i can go thru all this and stay strong by my own.

Few days ago i saw a video talking about "Social personality and anti Social personality",

It was a good lesson for me to learn and know about the personality of each people around me. 

At least i have learned to recognize who is really nice for me and who are not.

At least i have learned who should be friend of and be nice with and who are not.

At least i have learned who should i away from and who are not.

Really a good lesson....

Suddenly feel like wanna write in English....hehehe~ Mood on~